low day: the hours did not go my way - could have done this or that, but did not, could have spent time wisely like gold coin, hoarded, counted, not given away, but did not - there was no-one here to say - come on now, all is fine, just do this for a while, see how you go - but the wheelhouse was empty and I was in the hold hanging on to all my cargo and wondering about the temperature of the waternext poem