I lost it again - so hardly won - my equilibrium and I feel the scales tip, and my rooms collide, and balance is gone, on the slide and my hands slippery with it, the lack of straight line, the pivotal point wherein I stand firm and stop the beam moving is not here, is not now, and oh the disappointment as I know it go, like an old friend off round a corner - afraid their receding back is the last time seen and a long time gone.next poem