And it took such drastic Action to show me in Lights of neon how Wrong I was - my prodigious Willpower kept me on Tracks that seeped my Soul of its life's being yet I could not see. Blinded By unworthiness that Was not real and was Not asked, I lived a Lie in place of one I Admired with all my heart And I was wrong. He Never wanted me to Work so hard, he would Have wanted me to Live with a song.next poem