Even now after so many years I am seared with pain and fright - I miss you - such lack of presence 1 wanted to keep. Tell me it's all worth the effort that the steep uphill climb signifies something worthwhile something 1 maybe missed along the way. I would still give and give too much away - not having learnt that one dies in order to live from day to day - I would glue my fingers to my soul and chant, if I could retain an essence of warmth.next poem