You have to live the trial you're given you have to live your special suffering that grows the soul in cushioning ~ it means widening and exposure it is implosion and its opposite it is paring and filing it is cutting the gem - you walk the beam in balancing and ask why - look up at the sky, see the sun, the blue, the clouds and realise that endeavour and trial are living things, have their own lives that use you, the host of their expression.next poem